| Snow and math and stuff. |
[Dec. 3rd, 2006|10:03 pm] |
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I have been working on calculus for a bit and just looked out the window to find that the campus is dusted with snow. It looks really beautiful.
Thanksgiving was wonderful. I really needed the week off to just relax and settle my thoughts.
I camped outside to get a Nintendo Wii with my sister, Matt, and Tim. It was a fun time and we all got Wii's. I really am enjoying it so far, it is really fun, and the new Zelda is AWESOME.
Thanksgiving was nice. After dinner, I played Wii with my family. The highlight of the night was when my grandfather played Wii Sports Bowling. He LOVED it. He played a bunch of games in a row against different family members and was having a blast. I NEVER thought I would be playing video games with my grandfather. It was one of the coolest experiences.
The first week of school since Thanksgiving is over. Only two more weeks and then exam week. I cannot believe how fast this semester has gone by. Overall, I enjoyed it. There have been many days of work, many days of studying hard, and a few days of drinking too much, but it has been a great learning experience.
I have chilled out a lot since my last few posts.
These ups and downs are crazy. But I'll take em.
Peace. |
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[Nov. 16th, 2006|01:22 am] |
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Today I was walking with Alex after Calculus (he met me outside my class) and went with him back to his apartment. On the way back to his car, we saw a group of little kids laughing and playing and running through this beautiful area that had several trees (it wasn't woods or anything, it was just kind of like a bunch of trees on the grass to decorate the campus). When I saw this, it really made some type of weird impact on me. It almost made me feel sick. I remember those days: no worries, no homework, and plenty of time to play with your friends outside. \
The older I get, the more "lost" I feel. Isn't it suppose to be the opposite? Sometimes I feel like I have no idea what direction my life is going, and if it is good or bad. Sometimes everything is wonderful, and I am just not happy. I think it is because I over-think everything, and often say to myself, "well what if I would have done this instead?" or "why didn't I do that?". It really bothers me, and it seems like maybe I have been going in the wrong direction. I don't even know.
I kind of miss the summer. I am just beginning to realize how care-free it was. I mean, I had some really dumb issues that I was dealing with over the summer, but looking back I say to myself "Why on earth did I care so much about that?"
So many questions.
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[Nov. 11th, 2006|12:18 am] |
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It truely amazes me how someone could honestly hate another person. Do people not realize that by hating someone, you are making your life more miserable, not the person you hate.
Example:
You go out with a bunch of friends, and someone you hate is at the place you guys go to. Instead of having a good time with your friends, you are too miserable being angry at this person because he is there. The person that you hate is still having a great time even though you are miserable, your hate for them does not affect them at all.
Why can some people not realize this? I feel like it is so simple.
This situation is happening to someone(s) I know, and as much as I would love to tell them that they need to be more open-minded, I know they would not take my advice to heart. Maybe they would, I guess it is wrong for me to assume, but I am worried that in doing so, I could ruin a friendship.
Over the past few years, I have put an honest effort into being open-minded and respecting others. I have tried to act like a Christian, and I know I have failed (and still fail) many many times. I have tried to be kind to everyone, and put others before myself. I have tried, and will continue to try, because I believe....because I KNOW it is the right thing to do. I don't want to sound like I am trying to tell people what to do, I just wish others would realize that if everyone respected one another, this world would be filled with peace. I realize how difficult this would be, it is so much easier to simply write the ideas down.
I know that a world where everyone respects one another is impossible, but I will continue to fight the losing battle because it makes me happy.
Love, please. |
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[Nov. 9th, 2006|08:52 pm] |
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"What shall it profit a man to gain the whole world and to lose his own soul." Mark 8:36
Beautiful. |
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[Oct. 29th, 2006|09:10 pm] |
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It all hurts so much. |
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[Oct. 23rd, 2006|10:18 pm] |
Sometimes I feel like a complete fucking idiot. Not in the way a mentally depressed person does when their chemicals are unbalanced, but as an actual human being looking at their life. I make some of the dumbest mistakes. I know they are mistakes too, I know our society is wrong, but I am too weak. I feel like I am a slave to the overpowering society and negative influence by the media. Why am I so weak? Why do I struggle? I think sometimes I put myself in the worst positions.
God, I need strength (and a whole lot of it). |
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| Learning and stuff. |
[Oct. 17th, 2006|04:58 am] |
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College has been going well. I have my first Computer Science mid-term exam tomorrow, and what a better way to start my "mid-term career" by having it be a cumalative exam.
To be honest, I am not worried. I enjoy college and I am enjoying learning.
Also, to be honest, I could care less about school this week because my sister came home last weekend and is staying for awhile. I cannot wait to go home this weekend and see her! I haven't seen her since my graduation, which was in May. She brought with her her new doggy, who I am also very excited to see.
I am dating Ashley now. I have been for awhile, it just kind of happened one day. She is truely wonderful and has done an awesome job of helping me express my thoughts, some of which have been dormant in my head for awhile.
Thank you, God, for everything. |
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[Sep. 3rd, 2006|09:56 pm] |
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College has been going well. I am really enjoying the freedom, and the amount of time I spend not in class. I really like all of my teachers. The only class that is giving me trouble is Calculus, but the teacher is awesome and is very helpful. My classes include Computer Science I, Freshman Seminar for Computer Science, Visual Basic I, University Calculus I, and Chemistry for Consumers.
Dan is a very cool roommate. We relax a lot, play music, and just chill out. He has this little game thing that hooks up to the TV and it has pacman and GALAGA on it, which is very cool.
I met a very cute girl as well, Ashley. She is such a sweetheart, and has a wonderful perspective on life. She is very fun talking to and just being around.
It is nice that Matt, Alex, Driscoll, Brett, and Steff are at Fredonia as well. It is nice seeing them and hanging out with them. It is kind of like a part of home at school. I love them, and they truely mean a lot to me.
There are several people I miss from home. You might or might not know who you are, but I really miss you. This time away has also helped me realize the people that truely care.
Thank you, Lord, for giving me everything I have. And thank you for all of the good vibes at college. |
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| Friends. |
[Aug. 13th, 2006|09:21 pm] |
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Last night was very cool. Matt, Alex, Brett, Steph, and I relaxed and enjoyed a few drinks. It was a very fun night. Very good vibes all around.
I am excited for school, but I know I will miss home. |
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| Home from New York City. |
[Jul. 24th, 2006|03:38 pm] |
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NYC was absolutely beautiful. The weather was nice, the streets were crowded, the pizza was delicious, and Ryan Adams played an INCREDIBLE show. It was by far the best concert I have ever been to. It was my Uncle Dave's first time in NYC, and he was awed. Everyone had a great time. (Everyone includes my Mom, Dad, Aunt Claudy, Caitlyn (cousin), Uncle Dave, and myself).
Day one we arrived at the airport fifteen minutes early and took a van to the hotel. Our room was not ready when we got there, so they upgraded our room to a Premium Suite. We had a beautiful view from the window overlooking time square. We went out to get some pizza at this wonderful diner called Pazza Notte and then relaxed for a bit in the hotel. Later, we went to a restauraunt called Tavern on the Green, which is located in Central Park. The food was delicious! We then walked from 66th street to the Lincoln Center, and then to a food market, and then back to the hotel.
Day two we got on a bus and headed to Pier 44, where we took a three hour cruise around Manhattan. The boat ride was very peaceful, and the captain was very entertaining. Following the boat ride, we took a red bus tour around the city. It was nice to see all the towns and sections of Manhattan. I didn't remember most of the city since I haven't been there in years. Unfortunately my camera got dirty (the part under the lens) and I had to stop taking pictures (I took around 370 pictures total). Following all the tours, we went to see the Broadway musical Spamalot, which was written by the same guy who wrote the Monty Python movies, and was based on The Holy Grail. It was halarious. After, we went to get a bite to eat, and then Uncle Dave and I walked around looking for BB King's jazz club, but it was closed. Instead, we went to a cafe and got some dessert.
Day three my father, Uncle Dave, and I went to Sam Ash Music, Rudy's Music Shop, and Manny's Music. They had some incredible guitars and gear. After, we met back up with my mom, aunt, and cousin, and went to get pizza. Then my uncle and I took a nap and then left for New Jersey to see Ryan Adams. Although we got lost on the way there, we made it with plenty of time to get a drink and find a place to stand. Neal Casal opened, he was fantastic. Then Ryan came on around 945-10. He played a wonderful set, took a five minute break, and then came on and played a second set which was also amazing. After the second set he said goodbye and walked off stage. The lights came on and the guys working the stage started taking the microphones off the stands. My uncle said to me, "Is he really done?" and I told him "He might be, he didn't play an encore when he came to Buffalo on the last tour." My uncle wanted to see all the gear they were using so we went to the stage to check out the amps. We were probably second or third row from the stage (many people were leaving) when the next thing we know, Ryan and the band are back on stage. The encore he played was phenominal, and he played right up until the curfew which was midnight. My uncle really enjoyed the show, and was impressed with Ryan and his band (the Cardinals). We got back to New York without any trouble, dropped off the car, and walked to get some pizza.
I love New York City. |
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